A few years back when I finished my undergraduate degree I thought I had life all figured it. I thought I was the captain of my soul, the master of my soul because I had graduated top of my class. As a matter of fact, I was waiting to join a blue chip company and launch a career. This was never to be.
I had started to plan how while in my job and I would start a Business and ICT Consultancy Business on the side, write books, marry, have kids, preach, do my post graduate degree, build or buy a home, pay my student debt, build a hotel and then retire and die. Everything seemed set and was working perfectly.
But little did I know that I can never be “the Master of my fate, the captain of my soul.” However, I don’t regret any decision I ever made whether good or bad. You see, we live in a world where people who push against the tides of the world opinion make it into the news and not us who believe in a fair day wage.
Perfect Images on Social Media
From our early years, we are taught to show ourselves perfect to the outside world. No wonder people will defiantly post ideal images of themselves on Facebook, WhatsApp, Twitter and Instagram with such captions as “I’m who God says I’m.”, “I’m blessed. I’m favored” “No one can bring me down” “Don’t look at my past” and such egoistic and self-entitlement messages when they are hurting.
I always thought I was the only one who fails because everyone seemed ok. Everyone seemed perfect and flawless. They show us their perfect smiles, their new clothes, where their boyfriends took them for lunch, or when they are expecting babies. They post when they get new jobs or when he has gone down on one knee. People show themselves as the perfect captain of their ship.
To an outsider, they will look like they are making it but
they are faking it. They are unlike me who when I fail I will come to the same
social media and write how bad I have failed. Honestly, who says they have
fallen into debt, they had a failed business, they had a nasty break up and
such so innocently not to inspire but tell the story as it is.
I guess I’m the only imperfect person who says it as it is. Yes, I’m in debt (I will tell you how it happened), I have failed terribly in business, I’m a bad eater and struggle with weight and I failed terribly in my last farming project. I’m ok with it. This does not make me bad at least to my parents. Even if it looked bad to every one of you, to my family I’m the greatest hero.
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The few who gain courage to say they failed on social media, often give a long story on social media hoping to “inspire others with their story. The failure part is often nicely put. They cloth it and make it “holy”. Such become bad motivational speakers and role models. They will make us believe that they failed in their last relationship because “God ordained” it to fail because they were not incredible persons. But really?
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Your success in career, business, leadership or relationship has nothing to do with you being spiritual or incredible. None whatsoever. God does not give us success when we have attained a certain pinnacle of holiness. The blessings of God are not attained when you become content in God. You are not entitled to a good job because you “believe”. We also do.
You are Wrong “Christians”
After all, haven’t we seen ungodly people succeed? They have
done better things than you “Christians”. Let me talk to you “Christians” for a
moment. I know I will not be a good Christian but you must bear with me.
“Christians” do you read the same Bible that I do? Does your Bible teach shrewdness in business? Does it teach courage when you are fighting? Don’t you know the talented will rule the world and serve before kings? Aren’t you aware the borrower becomes the servant of the lender? Do your Bibles lack the chapter on giving? Do you not know the concept of the seed and the bread?
Mine teaches persistence when I’m praying. It teaches no one
should eat if you are not working. My bible teaches justice. It had concepts
about seasons. The Bible teaches of different vocations. Because you believe in
the lies of “God providing” while you are busy doing nothing, you will have no
place in this world. While you think you are working for God, you are working
for yourself and shall receive only for your consumption and not for eternity.
Chase Jesus and all his righteousness while you are doing
something with your life. Be in the “fields” threshing wheat. Doing business,
farming, consulting is no lesser vocation to teaching God’s word. Getting a
post graduate degree is also good just as a diploma in world missions is. Having
a new perspective is just as important as having a new perspective about life. Working
for government is no lesser career to being a bishop.
I know most of you “Christians” will read this work and frown
and say I stopped being godly. Yes, I’m still godly, prayerful, good student of
the Bible, teacher of the word and name it. But I also don’t read the bible in
parts excluding others. I’m a hard worker who believes in a fair daily wage. I’m
a believer who knows what tent making is.
And you “teachers of God’s” word, teach our young men and women the value of working. In fact do not accept anyone to attend lunch hour meetings if they do not have a job or business. Chase away young people who come to church to pray from morning to evening without sending a job application. Rebuke young men who can’t take an initiative to start a small business when they can’t get a job. Rebuke but don’t criticize. Let the young men hawk food or mandazi on the road side for a living. This will make them captain of their life
Teach young people that our God cares about their talents.
Tell them that the lazy one will be thrown to where there gnashing of the teeth
– hell. Teach them that Jesus is not their cheerleader. Teach young men that
soon they will be fathers and will be required to provide for their families.
Instruct them having their own money earns them some respect and dignity. Teach
them a father must provide for the family because that is biblical. Tame the
overzealous one who find no value in secular vocation.
Teach the young girls that they will soon be mothers and wives and they must bring honor to their husbands by how they live and take care of their family. How good they post godly messages on social media will not attract success. Instruct them that having a little money of their own gives them some class over those that men take care of all their bills. Teach them that God commends us to live a quiet and good life so that those who see us will praise his holy name by our lifestyle not messages on social media. By living an honoroble life, they will be masters of their fate, captains of their souls.
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I know it is a bad thing for you “Christians” to be told let God be the master but at the same time work. While you cling on to the words of Christ on holiness, righteousness, and surrender, also invest in his words of patience, kindness, generosity, shrewdness, courage, industrious, and hard word. If you are finding pleasure in just reading and feeling his word and never practicing, then you have a dead faith. I know it is easy to say, “Jesus take the wheel” but have you calculated the cost? Do you not know that if you must follow Jesus you must take your cross and know like him you will have no place to lay your head?
While I’m a Christian, Bible-believing, saved and prayerful. I still stay in a rented house with the hope I will build my home soon. Even though I pray, I have to put an aggressive plan to buy a car and pay school fees for my siblings. I don’t want to have any of them out of school. I have not fallen in arrears with their fees. I have joined investment groups and I pay my obligations on time. Why would God tell us to commit our plans to him and he would establish them? I can’t stay stupid. It is a sin to be idle and do nothing about life. This is being a captain of your soul!
I live every day grateful to God that even though I have not
much, I have a roof over my head, shoes to put on, food to eat, wonderful
family and a great job. This may look perfect, but I still have ambitions. Even
though I trust God in my next step, I can’t look clueless. I must be aggressive,
plan and execute.
I know most of the young “Christians” people like me will always want to invoke Invictus and say they are unconquered just because they are Christian and God has a destiny for them. The story behind the poem is really moving. The author, William Ernst Henley contracted tuberculosis of the bone at 12 years. As the disease progress, his doctors recommended that his feet be amputed below the knee. At 17, William penned this poem as a tribute to stoicism. Afterwards, he lived a normal life until his death thirty years later. He lived unconquered – Captain of his soul, master of his fate. Here is the full poem;
Out of the night that covers me,
Black as the pit from pole to pole,
I thank whatever gods may be
For my unconquerable soul.
In the fell clutch of circumstance
I have not winced nor cried aloud.
Under the bludgeonings of chance
My head is bloody, but unbowed.
Beyond this place of wrath and tears
Looms but the Horror of the shade,
And yet the menace of the years
Finds and shall find me unafraid.
It matters not how strait the gate,
How charged with punishments the scroll,
I am the master of my fate:
I am the captain of my soul.
While this may look inspiring to you “Christians” you need some taming. You just need to be told working is good and good in deed. Being responsible is a good thing. It is a good thing. Paying for your rent is a good thing. Taking care of your bills is a good thing. Being your own person will make you a perfect captain of your soul.
Ok. Ni hayo tu kwa sasa.
Let me know your views about being the captain of your ship.